I think father would be comforted if he could see us all in the Yellow House at Beulah! Nancy went on softly as the two leaned out of the window together. He was so loving, so careful of us, so afraid that anything should trouble us, that for months I couldnt think of him, air max wildwood even in heaven, as anything but worried. But now it seems just as if we were over the hardest time and could learn to live here in Beulah; and so he must be comforted if he can see us or think about us at all;--dont you feel like that, mother? Yes, her mother agreed gently, and her heart was grateful and full of hope. She had lost the father of her children and the dear companion of her life, and that loss could never be made good. Still her mind acknowledged the riches she possessed in her children, so she confessed herself neither desolate nor forsaken, but something in a humble human way that the Lord could take delight That was the only trouble with Allan Careys little daughter Julia, aged thirteen; she was, and always had been, the pink of perfection. As a baby she had always been exemplary, eating heartily and sleeping soundly. When she felt a pin in her flannel petticoat she deemed it discourteous to cry, because she knew that her nurse had at least tried to dress her properly. When awake, her mental machinery moved slowly and without any jerks. As to her moral machinery, the angels must have set it going at birth and planned it in such a way that it could neither stop nor go wrong. It was well meant, of course, but probably the angels who had the matter in charge were new, young, inexperienced angels, with vague ideas of human nature and inexact knowledge of Gods intentions; because a child that has no capability of doing the nike trainers uk wrong thing will hardly be able to manage a right one; not one of the big sort, anyway. At four or five years old Julia was always spoken of as such a good little girl. Many a time had Nancy in early youth stamped her foot and cried: Dont talk about Julia! I will not hear about Julia! for she was always held up as a pattern of excellence. Truth to tell she bored her own mother terribly; but that is not strange, for by a curious freak of nature, Mrs. Allan Carey was as flighty and capricious and irresponsible and gay and naughty as Julia was steady, limited, narrow, conventional, and dull; but the flighty mother passed out of the Carey family life, and Julia, from the age of five onward, fell into the charge of a pious, unimaginative governess, instead of being turned out to pasture with a lot of frolicsome young human creatures; so at thirteen she had apparently settled--hard, solid, and firm--into a mould. She had smooth fair hair, pale blue eyes, thin lips, and a somewhat too plump shape for her years. She was always tidy and wore her clothes well, laying enormous stress upon their material and style, this trait in her character having been added under the fostering influence of the wealthy and fashionable Gladys Ferguson. At thirteen, when Julia joined the flock of Carey chickens, she had the air of belonging to quite another order of beings. They had been through a discipline seldom suffered by only children. They had had to divide apples and toys, take turns at reading books, and learn generally to trot in double harness. If Nancy had a new dress at Christmas, Kathleen had a new hat in the spring. Gilbert heard the cry of Low bridge! very often after Kathleen appeared on the scene, and Kathleens ears, too, grew well accustomed to the same phrase after Peter was born. Julia never did a naughty thing in her life, nor spoke a wrong word, said her father once, proudly. Never mind, shes only ten, and theres hope for her yet, Captain Carey had replied cheerfully; though if he had known her a little later, in her first Beulah days, he might not have been so sanguine. She seemed to have no instinct of adapting herself to the family life, standing just a little aloof and in an attitude of silent criticism. She was a trig, smug prig, Nancy said, delighting in her accidental muster of three nike air max 90 short, hard, descriptive words. She hadnt a bit of humor, no fun, no gayety, no generous enthusiasms that carried her too far for safety or propriety. She brought with her to Beulah sheaves of school certificates, and when she showed them to Gilbert with their hundred per cent deportment and ninety-eight and seven-eighths per cent scholarship every month for years, he went out behind the barn and kicked its foundations savagely for several minutes. She was a sort of continual Sunday child, with an air of church and cold dinner and sermon-reading and hymn-singing and early bed. Nobody could fear, as for some impulsive, reckless little creature, that she would come to a bad end. Nancy said no one could imagine her as coming You never let mother hear you say these things, Nancy, Kathleen remarked once, but really and truly its just as bad to say them at all, when you know she wouldnt approve. My present object is to be as good as gold in mothers eyes, but there I stop! retorted Nancy cheerfully. Pretty soon I shall get virtuous enough to go a step further and endeavor to please the angelsnot Julias cast-iron angels, but the other angels, who understand and are patient, because they remember our frames and know that being dust we are likely to be dusty once in a while. Julia wasnt made of dust. She was made of--let me see--of skim milk and baked custard (the watery kind) and rice flour and gelatine, with a very little piece of overripe banananot enough to flavor, just enough to sicken. Stir this up with weak barley water without putting In a trace of salt, sugar, spice, or pepper, set it in a cool oven, take it out before it is done, and you will get Julia. Nancy was triumphant over this recipe for making Julias, only regretting that she could never show it to her mother, who, if critical, was always most appreciative. She did send it in a letter to the Admiral, off in China, and he, being none too good for human natures daily food, enjoyed it hugely and never scolded her at all. Julias only conversation at this time was on matters concerning Gladys Ferguson and the Ferguson family. When you are washing dishes in the sink of the Yellow House in Beulah it is very irritating to hear of Gladys Fergusons mother-of-pearl opera glasses, her French maid, her breakfast on a tray in bed, her diamond ring, her photograph in the Sunday Times, her travels abroad, her proficiency in French and German. Dont trot Gladys into the kitchen, for goodnesssake, Julia! grumbled Nancy on a warm day. I dont want her diamond ring in my dishwater. Wait till Sunday, when we go to the hotel for dinner in our best clothes, if you must talk about her. You dont wipe the tumblers dry, nor put them in the proper place, when your mind is full of Gladys! All right! said Julia gently. Only I hope I shall always be able to wipe dishes and keep my mind on better things at the same time. Thats what Miss Tewksbury told me when she knew I had got to give up my home luxuries for a long time. nike air max 1 Dont let poverty drag you down, Julia she said: keep your high thoughts and dont let them get soiled with the grime of daily living.It is only just to say that Nancy was not absolutely destitute of self-control and politeness, because at this moment she had a really vicious desire to wash Julias supercilious face and neat nose with the dishcloth, fresh from the frying pan. She knew that she could not grasp those irritating high thoughts and apply the grime of daily living to them concretely and actually, but Julias face was within her reach, and Nancys fingers tingled with desire. No trace of this savage impulse appeared in her behavior, however; she rinsed the dishpan, turned it upside down in the sink, and gave the wiping towels to Julia, asking her to wring them out in hot water and hang them on the barberry bushes, according to Mrs. Careys instructions. It doesnt seem as if I could! whimpered Julia. I have always been so sensitive, and dish towels are so disgusting! They do _smell_, Nancy! They do, said Nancy sternly, but they will smell worse if they are not washed! I give you the dish-wiping and take the washing, just to save your hands, but you must turn and turn about with Kathleen and me with some of the ugly, hateful things. If you were company of course we couldnt let you, but you are a member of the family. Our principal concern must be to keep mothers high thoughtsfrom grime; ours must just take their chance  
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