wouldnt as yet at any rate tell me anything very dreadful; so that to stave off this danger I harried her with questions about Mrs. Meldrum and, without waiting for replies, became profuse on the subject of my own doings. My companion was completely lebron 8 shoes silent, and I felt both as if she were watching my nervousness with a sort of sinister irony and as if I were talking to some different, strange person. Flora plain and obscure and soundless was no Flora at all. At Mrs. Meldrums door she turned off with the observation that as there was certainly a great deal I should have to say to our friend she had better not go in with me. I looked at her againI had been keeping my eyes away from herbut only to meet her magnified stare. I greatly desired in truth to see Mrs. Meldrum alone, but there was something so pitiful in the girls predicament that I hesitated to fall in with this idea of dropping her. Yet one couldnt express a compassion without seeming to take too much wretchedness for granted. I reflected that I must really figure to her as a fool, which was an entertainment I had never expected to give her. It rolled over me there for the first timeit has come back to me sincethat there is, strangely, in very deep misfortune a dignity finer even than in the most inveterate habit of being all right. I couldnt have to her the manner of treating it as a mere detail that I was face to face with a part of what, at our last meeting, we had had such a scene about; but while I was trying to think of some manner that I could have she said quite colourlessly, yet somehow as if she might never see me again: Goodbye. Im going to take my walk. All alone? She looked round the great bleak cliff-top. With whom should I go? Besides, I like to be alonefor the present. This gave me the glimmer of a vision that she regarded her disfigurement as temporary, and the confidence came to me that she would never, for her happiness, cease to be a creature of illusions. It enabled me to exclaim, smiling brightly and nike hyperfuse shoes feeling indeed idiotic: Oh, I shall see you again! But I hope youll have a very pleasant walk. All my walks are very pleasant, thank youthey do me such a lot of good. She was as quiet as a mouse, and her words seemed to me stupendous in their wisdom. I take several a day, she continued. She might have been an ancient woman responding with humility at the church door to the patronage of the parson. The more I take the better I feel. Im ordered by the doctors to keep all the while in the air and go in for plenty of exercise. It keeps up my general health, you know, and if that goes on improving as it has lately done everything will soon be all right. All that was the matter with me beforeand always; it was too reckless!was that I neglected my general health. It acts directly on the state of the particular organ. So Im going three miles. I grinned at her from the doorstep while Mrs. Meldrums maid stood there to admit me. Oh, Im so glad, I said, looking at her as she paced away with the pretty flutter she had kept and remembering the day when, while she rejoined Lord Iffield, I had indulged in the same observation. Her air of assurance was on this occasion not less than it had been on that; but I recalled that Her general collapse after that brute of an Iffields rupture. She cried her eyes outshe passed through a horror of black darkness. Then came a gleam of light, and the light appears to have broadened. She went into goggles as repentant Magdalens go into the Catholic Church. Yet you dont think shell be saved? She thinks she willthats all I can tell you. Theres no doubt that when once she brought herself to accept her real remedy, as she calls it, she began to enjoy a relief that she had never known. That feeling, very new and in spite of what she pays for it most refreshing, has given her something to hold on by, begotten in her foolish little mind a belief that, as she says, shes on the mend and that in the course of time, if she leads a tremendously healthy life, shell be able to take off her muzzle and become as dangerous again as ever. It keeps her going. And what keeps you? Youre good until the parties begin again. Oh, she doesnt object to me now! smiled air jordan uk Mrs. Meldrum. Im going to take her abroad; we shall be a pretty pair. I was struck with this energy and after a moment I inquired the reason of it. Its to divert her mind, my friend replied, reddening again, I thought, a little. We shall go next week: Ive only waited, to start, to see how your mother would be. I expressed to her hereupon my sense of her extraordinary merit and also that of the inconceivability of Floras fancying herself still in a situation not to jump at the chance of marrying a man like Dawling. She says hes too ugly; she says hes too dreary; she says in fact hes ‘nobodyMrs. Meldrum pursued. She says above all that hes not ‘her own sort. She doesnt deny that hes good, but she insists on the fact that hes grotesque. Hes quite the last person she would ever dream of. I was almost disposed on hearing this to protest that if the girl had so little proper feeling her noble suitor had perhaps served her right; but after a while my curiosity as to just how her noble suitor had served her got the better of that emotion, and I asked a question or two which led my companion again to apply to him the invidious epithet I have already quoted. What had happened was simply that Flora had at the eleventh hour broken down in the attempt to put him off with an uncandid account of her infirmity and that his lordships interest in her had not been proof against the discovery of the way she had practised on him. Her dissimulation, he was obliged to perceive, had been infernally deep. The future in short assumed a new complexion for him when looked at through the grim glasses of a bride who, as he had said to some one, couldnt really, when you came to find out, see her hand before her face. He had conducted himself like any other jockeyed customerhe had returned the animal as unsound. He had backed out in his own way, giving the business, by some sharp shuffle, such a turn as to make the rupture ostensibly Floras, but he had none the less remorselessly and basely backed out. He had cared for her lovely face, cared for it in the amused and haunted way it had been her poor little delusive gift to make men care; and her lovely face, damn it, with the monstrous gear she had begun to rig upon it, was just what had let him in. He had in the judgment of his family done everything that could be expected of him; he had madeMrs. Meldrum had herself seen the lettera handsome offer of pecuniary compensation. Oh, if Flora, with her incredible buoyancy, was in a manner on her feet again now, it was not that she had not for weeks and weeks been prone in the dust. Strange were the humiliations, the prostrations it was given to some natures to survive. That Flora had survived was perhaps after all a sort of sign that she was reserved for some final mercy. But she has been in the abysses at any rate, said Mrs. Meldrum, and I really dont think I can tell you what pulled her through. I think I can tell you, I said. What air jordan shoes in the world but Mrs. Meldrum? At the end of an hour Flora had not come in, and I was obliged to announce that I should have but time to reach the station, where, in charge of my mothers servant, I was to find my luggage. Mrs. Meldrum put before me the question of waiting till a later train, so as not to lose our young lady; but I confess I gave this alternative a consideration less profound than I pretended. Somehow I didnt care if I did lose our young lady. Now that I knew the worst that had befallen her it struck me still less as possible to meet her on the ground of condolence; and with the melancholy aspect she wore to me what other ground was left? I lost her, but I caught my train. In truth she was so changed that one hated to see it; and now that she was in charitable hands one didnt feel compelled to make great efforts. I had studied her face for a particular beauty; I had lived with that beauty and reproduced it; but I knew what belonged to my trade well enough to be wouldnt as yet at any rate tell me anything very dreadful; so that to stave off this danger I harried her with questions about Mrs. Meldrum and, without waiting for replies, became profuse on the subject of my own doings. My companion was completely lebron 8 shoes silent, and I felt both as if she were watching my nervousness with a sort of sinister irony and as if I were talking to some different, strange person. Flora plain and obscure and soundless was no Flora at all. At Mrs. Meldrums door she turned off with the observation that as there was certainly a great deal I should have to say to our friend she had better not go in with me. I looked at her againI had been keeping my eyes away from herbut only to meet her magnified stare. I greatly desired in truth to see Mrs. Meldrum alone, but there was something so pitiful in the girls predicament that I hesitated to fall in with this idea of dropping her. Yet one couldnt express a compassion without seeming to take too much wretchedness for granted. I reflected that I must really figure to her as a fool, which was an entertainment I had never expected to give her. It rolled over me there for the first timeit has come back to me sincethat there is, strangely, in very deep misfortune a dignity finer even than in the most inveterate habit of being all right. I couldnt have to her the manner of treating it as a mere detail that I was face to face with a part of what, at our last meeting, we had had such a scene about; but while I was trying to think of some manner that I could have she said quite colourlessly, yet somehow as if she might never see me again: Goodbye. Im going to take my walk. All alone? She looked round the great bleak cliff-top. With whom should I go? Besides, I like to be alonefor the present. This gave me the glimmer of a vision that she regarded her disfigurement as temporary, and the confidence came to me that she would never, for her happiness, cease to be a creature of illusions. It enabled me to exclaim, smiling brightly and nike hyperfuse shoes feeling indeed idiotic: Oh, I shall see you again! But I hope youll have a very pleasant walk. All my walks are very pleasant, thank youthey do me such a lot of good. She was as quiet as a mouse, and her words seemed to me stupendous in their wisdom. I take several a day, she continued. She might have been an ancient woman responding with humility at the church door to the patronage of the parson. The more I take the better I feel. Im ordered by the doctors to keep all the while in the air and go in for plenty of exercise. It keeps up my general health, you know, and if that goes on improving as it has lately done everything will soon be all right. All that was the matter with me beforeand always; it was too reckless!was that I neglected my general health. It acts directly on the state of the particular organ. So Im going three miles. I grinned at her from the doorstep while Mrs. Meldrums maid stood there to admit me. Oh, Im so glad, I said, looking at her as she paced away with the pretty flutter she had kept and remembering the day when, while she rejoined Lord Iffield, I had indulged in the same observation. Her air of assurance was on this occasion not less than it had been on that; but I recalled that Her general collapse after that brute of an Iffields rupture. She cried her eyes outshe passed through a horror of black darkness. Then came a gleam of light, and the light appears to have broadened. She went into goggles as repentant Magdalens go into the Catholic Church. Yet you dont think shell be saved? She thinks she willthats all I can tell you. Theres no doubt that when once she brought herself to accept her real remedy, as she calls it, she began to enjoy a relief that she had never known. That feeling, very new and in spite of what she pays for it most refreshing, has given her something to hold on by, begotten in her foolish little mind a belief that, as she says, shes on the mend and that in the course of time, if she leads a tremendously healthy life, shell be able to take off her muzzle and become as dangerous again as ever. It keeps her going. And what keeps you? Youre good until the parties begin again. Oh, she doesnt object to me now! smiled air jordan uk Mrs. Meldrum. Im going to take her abroad; we shall be a pretty pair. I was struck with this energy and after a moment I inquired the reason of it. Its to divert her mind, my friend replied, reddening again, I thought, a little. We shall go next week: Ive only waited, to start, to see how your mother would be. I expressed to her hereupon my sense of her extraordinary merit and also that of the inconceivability of Floras fancying herself still in a situation not to jump at the chance of marrying a man like Dawling. She says hes too ugly; she says hes too dreary; she says in fact hes ‘nobodyMrs. Meldrum pursued. She says above all that hes not ‘her own sort. She doesnt deny that hes good, but she insists on the fact that hes grotesque. Hes quite the last person she would ever dream of. I was almost disposed on hearing this to protest that if the girl had so little proper feeling her noble suitor had perhaps served her right; but after a while my curiosity as to just how her noble suitor had served her got the better of that emotion, and I asked a question or two which led my companion again to apply to him the invidious epithet I have already quoted. What had happened was simply that Flora had at the eleventh hour broken down in the attempt to put him off with an uncandid account of her infirmity and that his lordships interest in her had not been proof against the discovery of the way she had practised on him. Her dissimulation, he was obliged to perceive, had been infernally deep. The future in short assumed a new complexion for him when looked at through the grim glasses of a bride who, as he had said to some one, couldnt really, when you came to find out, see her hand before her face. He had conducted himself like any other jockeyed customerhe had returned the animal as unsound. He had backed out in his own way, giving the business, by some sharp shuffle, such a turn as to make the rupture ostensibly Floras, but he had none the less remorselessly and basely backed out. He had cared for her lovely face, cared for it in the amused and haunted way it had been her poor little delusive gift to make men care; and her lovely face, damn it, with the monstrous gear she had begun to rig upon it, was just what had let him in. He had in the judgment of his family done everything that could be expected of him; he had madeMrs. Meldrum had herself seen the lettera handsome offer of pecuniary compensation. Oh, if Flora, with her incredible buoyancy, was in a manner on her feet again now, it was not that she had not for weeks and weeks been prone in the dust. Strange were the humiliations, the prostrations it was given to some natures to survive. That Flora had survived was perhaps after all a sort of sign that she was reserved for some final mercy. But she has been in the abysses at any rate, said Mrs. Meldrum, and I really dont think I can tell you what pulled her through. I think I can tell you, I said. What air jordan shoes in the world but Mrs. Meldrum? At the end of an hour Flora had not come in, and I was obliged to announce that I should have but time to reach the station, where, in charge of my mothers servant, I was to find my luggage. Mrs. Meldrum put before me the question of waiting till a later train, so as not to lose our young lady; but I confess I gave this alternative a consideration less profound than I pretended. Somehow I didnt care if I did lose our young lady. Now that I knew the worst that had befallen her it struck me still less as possible to meet her on the ground of condolence; and with the melancholy aspect she wore to me what other ground was left? I lost her, but I caught my train. In truth she was so changed that one hated to see it; and now that she was in charitable hands one didnt feel compelled to make great efforts. I had studied her face for a particular beauty; I had lived with that beauty and reproduced it; but I knew what belonged to my trade well enough to be  
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